Let me just admit it...I'm selfish.
Tomorrow the boys go back to school...and I'm miserable. I don't want to be miserable, but dammit, I am.
Yes, I am excited for them. They both have incredible teachers this year. (I know because they each have the same teacher as they did last year.) They both have great classmates. (Again, the same ones as last year.) Gray is starting violin this year. They're both excited about chess club. It's a good thing.
So, why have I unsuccessfully been fighting back tears the past couple days just thinking about it?!! Yeah, I guess it's that whole selfish thing, huh? Bottom line, it just isn't as fun around here when they're not around. :(
I guess I should count myself lucky though...Annie will be around! At least on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. She's still being homeschooled, and we're both really excited about the upcoming school year. She actually started her school year today. She's taking another class at the community college this semester. Children's Literature...and man, am I jealous! Anyway, this means I prepare her assignments for her other classes and send them with her on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and she spends her day on campus.
So anyway, if I get this depressed each fall when school starts, how I am ever going to survive when they all move out?!! I'd like to say that I will feel nothing but overwhelming joy for them moving on with their lives, chasing their dreams. So yeah, that means I really need to put in some work on this pathetic selfishness of mine, don't I?