Saturday, October 31, 2009

All Quiet on the Western Front...random thoughts

All Quiet on the Western Front by Erich Maria Remarque.

You know all that complaining I do about how much work it is homeschooling Annie? How about some counter-argument? Well, aside from the joy it is to get to spend so much time with her as she's growing up, and the blessing it is that we're able to give her an education suited to her needs, there is the added bonus for me personally of getting to learn and/or relearn so many things, experience new things, and read books I likely never would have read otherwise. All Quiet on the Western Front is the perfect example. I know for many people this is required reading in high school, but it never made any of my assigned reading lists. And while I've long wanted to read it on my own, if I'm being honest, I have to admit that I likely never would have gotten around to it. If not for homeschooling.

And I really can't tell you how grateful I am that I finally did read it. While it is certainly one of those books where using the word "enjoyable" to describe your reading experience doesn't seem quite appropriate, I can definitely say that I think it is a wonderful, powerful, important book.

Many times I found myself reminded of Band of Brothers (the mini-series, not the book which I haven't yet read). Yes, I realize we're talking different wars, different times, and even different "sides," but in part, I think that was part of what made it so powerful to me. While All Quiet on the Western Front is a fictionalized account, Remarque did himself serve in combat in WWI, and was in fact, wounded several times. And yet despite the differences, there are some undeniable, and horrifying, similarities. Because both are told from the perspective of the soldier.

All Quiet on the Western Front is told by Paul Baumer, who at the time he enlists with his classmates, is a  mere 18-years-old. He and his friends did not enlist in the war because they believed in it, but because it is what they're expected to do. It is the older generation, in particular, their teachers, who deliberately make them feel that it is their only choice, that to not enlist would be disloyal.

For us lads of eighteen they ought to have been mediators and guides to the world of maturity, the world of work, of duty, of culture, of progress--to the future. We often made fun of them and played jokes on them, but in our hearts we trusted them. The idea of authority, which they represented, was associated in our minds with a greater insight and a more humane wisdom. But the first death we saw shattered this belief. We had to recognize that our generation was more to be trusted than theirs. They surpassed us only in phrases and cleverness. The first bombardment showed us our mistake, and under it the world as they had taught it to us broke in pieces.
And as the war goes on, as their experiences in the trenches become their new norm, they come to realize that even if the war eventually ends and even if they survive it, they will never, ever be the same.

Albert expresses it: "The war has ruined us for everything."

He is right. We are not youth any longer. We don't want to take the world by storm. We are fleeing. We fly from ourselves. From our life. We were eighteen and had begun to love life and the world; and we had to shoot it to pieces. The first bomb, the first explosion, burst in our hearts. We are cut off from activity, from striving, from progress. We believe in such things no longer, we believe in war.

This is such a completely human book. I know that I can never, ever possibly understand, or come anywhere close to understanding, through books or documentaries or anything else, what it feels like to live the life of a soldier in combat. But as with others whose shoes I've never had to walk in...those living in complete and abject poverty, those persecuted simply because they were born, etc....I don't want to shy away from their stories. There are vivid images in this book that I fear will haunt me...a scene involving wounded horses, a scene of a battle fought in a cemetery...and to me, they are but scenes in a book. What must scenes like this, viewed with one's own eyes, do to a person? I realize that empathy is still far from experience, but I still think it brings us closer as people to at least try to understand the lives of others.

This book though, while obviously very sad, and sometimes gruesome, does have lighter moments. Moments that even bring a smile to one's face. It's as if you come to very much appreciate the little things, as these soldiers must. And the closeness that the soldiers feel with one another is a very strong, and beautiful, part of this book.

We sit opposite one another, Kat and I, two soldiers in shabby coats, cooking a goose in the middle of the night. We don't talk much, but I believe we have a more complete communion with one another than even lovers have.

You may have noticed in the passages quoted, that the language is not fancy and flowery. It is certainly well-written and easy to understand. And I found myself very much appreciating its simple beauty.

Monotonously the lorries sway, monotonously come the calls, monotonously falls the rain. It falls on our heads and on the heads of the dead up in the line, on the body of the little recruit with the wound that is so much too big for his hip; it falls on Kemmerich's grave; it falls in our hearts.
Like I said, I am very thankful that circumstances finally "made" me read this book. I can definitely see why this book is considered a classic. It's a book that will stay with me. And though I know I've already inundated you with passages, I'm going to leave you with just one more. It is taken from the time when Paul receives two weeks leave and returns home to visit his family.

My mother is the only one who asks no questions. Not so my father. He wants me to tell him about the front; he is curious in a way that I find stupid and distressing; I no longer have any real contact with him. There is nothing he likes more than just hearing about it. I realize he does not know that a man cannot talk of such things; I would do it willingly, but it is too dangerous for me to put these things into words. I am afraid they might then become gigantic and I be no longer able to master them. What would become of us if everything that happens out there were quite clear to us?

*****
What others had to say:

*Fyrefly's Book Blog
*Book PSmith
*Shelf Love
*Reading Matters

If I've missed your review, feel free to leave a link in the comments, and I will happily add it here. Thanks.

Friday, October 30, 2009

a happy distraction


No, I am not supposed to have anything to do with the blogging world this week. In fact, I am supposed to be avoiding the computer as much as possible. But dammit, when I heard about the Women Unbound reading challenge, it was just far too tempting. Last night when I first caught wind of it, I allowed myself to go look on-line and see if I could find a biography of one of my all-time favorite women. That satisfied my urge for that moment, and I was then able to get back to typing up today's EnviSci lecture. But then this morning, I had this wonderful, enthusiastic, and utterly contagious e-mail in my inbox from Eva, and I found myself completely powerless to resist...I simply had to go start pulling books from the shelves. (Okay, I'm such a dork...since I have an absolutely unconquerable list of things to do today, I timed myself. Yes, for real. I gave myself 1 minute to grab books for my reading list for this challenge. Which means, of course, the future will probably see me changing and adding to this list, but at least I got the fun of putting a list together. :D Hopefully, this post will get this out of my system, and I'll be able to concentrate on the things I'm supposed to be doing. Until Sunday, anyway, when I hopefully will be able to get back to bloggging and find out what you all have been up to this week.)

So here's what I've come up with for my tentative list:
*a biography of Rosalind Franklin, probably either Rosalind Franklin: The Dark Lady of DNA by Brenda Maddox or Rosalind Franklin and DNA by Anne Sayre
*Nobel Prize Women in Science: Their Lives, Struggles, and Momentous Discoveries by Sharon Bertsch McGrayne (a book I stumbled across last night in my search for a Rosalind Franklin bio)
--and then these are the ones I grabbed this morning (meaning that they won't be breaking my book buying ban like the ones above will :D)
*Subject to Debate: Sense and Dissents on Women, Politics, and Culture by Katha Pollitt (Will likely be my first read for the challenge as I currently have it out from the library. It's a collection of essays, and I want to thank Ana again for introducing me to it.)
*Promiscuities: The Secret Struggle for Womanhood by Naomi Wolf
From the back cover: In this provocative and highly personal book, bestselling author Naomi Wolf explores a subject that has long been taboo in our society: women's sexual coming-of-age. Promiscuities brazenly exposes the truths behind the conflicting messages directed at young women during and after the sexual revolution. Drawing on surprising examples from the ancient and recent past, along with vivid recollections of her own youth, Wolf show how our "liberated" culture still fears and distorts female passion. She also shares fascinating true stories that illustrate the fantasies and sometimes overwhelming realities women pass through on their way toward erotic and emotional discovery. A landmark book, Promiscuities is a call to women of all ages to reclaim and celebrate their sexuality.
*The Maternal is Political: Women Writers at the Intersection of Motherhood & Social Change edited by Shari MacDonald Strong (I've been wanting to read this one ever since Dewey's review. She loved it, and I just know I will, too.)
From the back cover: The saying is true: The hand that rocks the cradle is the hand that rules the world. And the world has never needed mothers more. World and national leaders can't agree on how to educate our children or empower us to feed our families, on how to join together as a global community or keep us safe. Fortunately, mothers--the most underestimated and unsung political group--hold the future in their arms and hands. Whether they're starting ambitious movements by taking on urgent matters that affect millions or speaking quietly within their homes and communities, the mothers in this collection are, like mothers everywhere, making a difference one person, one issue, one wrong-that-needs-righting at a time. For moms who are willing to fight the that good fight, The Maternal is Political is a comfort, an inspiration, fuel for the fire, and a roadmap to better future...for us and for all of our children.
*The Road of Lost Innocence by Somaly Mam
From the back cover: Born in a village deep in the Cambodian forest, Somaly Mam was sold into sexual slavery by her grandfather when she was twelve years old. For the next decade she was shuttled through the brothels that make up the sprawling sex trade of Southeast Asia. She suffered unspeakable acts of brutality and witnessed horrors that would haunt her for the rest of her life--until, in her early twenties, she managed to escape. Unable to forget the girls she left behind, Mam became a tenacious and brave leader in the fight against human trafficking, rescuing sex workers--some as young as five and six--offering them shelter, rehabilitation, healing, and love, and leading them into new life. Written in exquisite, spare, unflinching prose, The Road of Lost Innocence is a memoir that will leave you awestruck by the courage and strength of this extraordinary woman and will renew your faith in the power of an individual to bring about change.
*Another Day in the Frontal Lobe: A Brain Surgeon Exposes Life on the Inside by Katrina Firlik
From the back cover: Katrina Firlik is a neurosurgeon, one of only two hundred or so women among the alpha males who dominate this high-pressure, high-prestige profession. She is also a superbly gifted writer--witty, insightful, at once humane and refreshingly wry....
*Grotesque by Natsuo Kirino (Wasn't entirely sure if some fiction was "required" for the challenge, but this sounded like a great one to throw in.)
From the back cover: ...Natsuo Kirino, celebrated author of Out, seamlessly weaves together the stories of these women's struggles within the conventions and restrictions of Japanese society. At once a psychological investigation of the pressures facing Japanese women and a classic work of noir fiction, Grotesque is a brilliantly twisted novel of ambition, desire, beauty, cruelty, and identity by one of our most electrifying writers.
*Fearless Girls, Wise Women & Beloved Sisters: Heroines in Folktales from Around the World by Kathleen Ragan (Because, well, doesn't this book just sound utterly wonderful?!!)

Many, many thanks to the three incredible women hosting this challenge, Eva, Aarti, and Care!!!!!!

Okay, break over.

Monday, October 26, 2009

let the whine-fest begin...

Just from the title, I'm sure you realize that it might be wise to just skip this post, right? Seriously, highly recommeded strategy.

Well, another read-a-thon has come and gone. And as much fun as it was, I now begin to pay the price for blowing off all the work I should have been doing instead. I'm not sure if I'm more exhausted from the read-a-thon and the exciting, draining, and ultimately sucky football game last night or from the thought of the week ahead. (BTW, Chris, I still sort of think that going out and celebrating by buying three books is somewhat akin to rubbing salt in my wounds! Oh hell, you know I love you anyway.)

Anyway, I may be a tad scarce this week. Which totally sucks, as I actually finished books (shocking, I know) that I could be talking about. Just going to be "one of those weeks."

Monday afternoons this semester are always a tad hectic...I have just enough time to throw together a very simple supper after picking up the boys from chess club so that Rich has enough time to eat it after arriving home from Annie's flute lesson before he has to run out the door to teach his night class. Today we also have to throw in Baker's birthday. Happy 7th birthday, Baker!

Tuesday is Gray's birthday!!!! Tomorrow, he shall be turning 9. Or so says the calendar, but I'm still somewhat in denial. Yes, that whole they grow up too fast thing rearing its ugly head. Am not ready at all, as in I haven't even wrapped his presents. Or even bought them all.

Wednesday should be fun...Annie volunteers at the library in the morning, and she'll have to just wait there and do some schoolwork when she finishes, because I will be in the dentist's chair having three more fillings replaced. Then that evening I'll be taking her back to the library for teen game night while Rich takes the boys to swimming lessons.

Thursday's pretty slow...Annie just has art class. Oops, and the boys check-ups.

Friday...if things ever get worked out, Gray will be having a friend sleep over. (They've been playing phone tag all weekend.)

And Saturday, of course, is Halloween. No, we don't have our pumpkins or candy or even all of Annie's costume. My parents are also coming to visit. We will be celebrating Gray's birthday with them. And Annie has to be at the library again, as she's helping with the Halloween party they're throwing for the little ones. And since my parents are coming, I actually need to clean, which believe me, at this point is a far bigger task than it should be...this place is currently a dump of epic proportions!

Okay, so I could deal with all of that. Not happily (I hate having so much running around to do), but I could deal and be fine. No, what has totally sent me over the edge here is the fact that I've reached the end of all the school prep I did over the summer...from here on out, it's a matter of just trying to stay one step ahead. And major #momfail this weekend. I honestly had no business blowing off all responsibilities. Because now I don't have today's EnviSci lecture/discussion plan finished, nor do I have today's history prep done. We'll get through the other subjects, and then I'll set Annie loose to just work on some of her long term assignments, but I will still be feeling incredibly guilty for dropping the ball. And I will be scrambling like hell, trying desperately to get us caught back up before this quarter ends and I have to write the damn quarterly report in a few weeks. Seriously feeling like my head's going to explode here.

So...end of bitching and complaining. Except to say that I'll be missing you this week, since I likely won't have much computer time. Have a fabulous week, everyone!!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Final Update











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 65 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 20 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 0 minutes

--Sleep (shame on me!) 0 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 39 (graphic novel) + 37 (fiction) = 76 total

--What I read: finished Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott, started Fables: The Mean Seasons (Vol. 5) by Bill Willingham

Down the hatch:

--Food: piece of coffee cake

--Drink: two small cups of coffee

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 830 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 460 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 80 minutes

--Sleep: 155 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 797 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 63 (non-fiction) + 287 (fiction) = 1147 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott,
and started both Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg and Fables: The Mean Seasons by Bill Willingham

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, 2 pieces of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 8 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 5 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola, glass of Fresca

Miscellaneous comments:
Well, this was the most I ever slept during a read-a-thon, and the most pages I ever got read during one (because I read so many graphic novels). It was fun having the whole family here this time, but definitely more distracting, too.
Congratulations to everyone who participated! Thank you to all the cheerleaders, and thank you once again to all those who worked so hard to keep Dewey's vision alive!

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 7











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 0 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 15 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 0 minutes

--Sleep (shame on me!) 125 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 0

--What I read: nothing

Down the hatch:

--Food: nothing

--Drink: nothing

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 765 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 420 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 80 minutes

--Sleep: 155 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 758 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 63 (non-fiction) + 250 (fiction) = 1071 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, and started both Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg and Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 8 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 3 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola, glass of Fresca

Miscellaneous comments:
Oops. Slept a little longer than I meant to. Oh well...no going back now, is there? Rich got back up with me though, so I guess after I go visit a few people, I'll head back in with him and read peacefully.

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 6











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 30 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 70 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 0 minutes

--Sleep (shame on me!) 0 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 25

--What I read: still reading Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: nothing

--Drink: nothing

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 765 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 405 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 80 minutes

--Sleep: 30 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 758 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 63 (non-fiction) + 250 (fiction) = 1071 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, and started both Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg and Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 8 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 3 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola, glass of Fresca

Miscellaneous comments:
I hate to do it, but I just read the same paragraph in the neighborhood of ten times and I still have no clue what I read. Think I'll take a nap. Rich's alarm clock is set to go off in about an hour anyway, so I'll try to drag my lazy butt out of bed then. Annie gave up about 15 minutes ago and hit the sack, too.

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 5











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 85 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 110 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 5 minutes

--Sleep (shame on me!) 0 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 68

--What I read: still reading Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: 2 pieces of chocolate

--Drink: glass of Fresca

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 735 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 335 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 80 minutes

--Sleep: 30 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 758 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 63 (non-fiction) + 225 (fiction) = 1046 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, and started both Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg and Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 8 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 3 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola, glass of Fresca

Miscellaneous comments:
Soooooo tired. Gray read for a couple more hours, but went to bed about midnight. Rich went to bed a little while ago, set the alarm for 5:30 (we'll see if he actually gets up). Annie is the only one who seems to be going strong.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Dewey Mini-Challenge

I knew Eva was going to host this mini-challenge again, and I kept telling myself that I should get my act together and decide what I wanted to write about ahead of time so I wouldn't sit here during the read-a-thon crying trying to put something coherent to "paper." But I didn't, and I'm sitting here crying, still not sure what to write about.

I miss Dewey so much. Every day. In a lot of ways. I think the book blogging world has changed a lot without her here. I think she was this sort of anchor, sort of an ideal. Not that she tried to be any such thing. She was just who she was. And who she was was someone very special indeed.

But as much as I miss her in the book blogging community, I miss her infinitely more as Dewey the friend. I miss our e-mail chats. Chats about everything under the sun. From homeschooling (she was always so supportive of me homeschooling Annie, and had great advice as she'd had homeschooled her son for a while) to pregnancy (we both suffered through difficult pregnancies, including both having had preeclampsia). From Thanksgiving turkeys to organic dark chocolate. From house guests to computers. Oh, and of course, books. :) One of the most treasured e-mails I ever received was just about a week before she died...she sent me a link to a slide show of photos she took during a walk through the woods with her husband. I felt as if I was getting a glimpse at her world through her eyes. I promised her we would come see those sights with her in person one day. But of course, that day will never come.

I miss you, Dewey. And I love you.

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 4











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 80 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 90 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 10 minutes

--Sleep (shame on me!) 30 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 54

--What I read: Where The Wild Things Were--chap. 3--by William Stolzenburg, started Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: nothing

--Drink: small cup of coffee

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 650 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 225 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 75 minutes

--Sleep:  30 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 758 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 63 (non-fiction) + 157 (fiction) = 978 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, and started both Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg and Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 6 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 3 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola

Miscellaneous comments:
I can't believe I already gave in and took a nap. And I have to admit it hasn't perked me up one iota. Is it time for me to admit that I'm just too old for this? I know, I know, that's such a cop-out, huh? I'm not going to give up yet, but I'm beginning to think this may finally be the read-a-thon when I just throw in the towel and go to bed at some point.

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 3











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 205 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 45 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 20 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 167

--What I read: Where The Wild Things Were--chap. 2--by William Stolzenburg, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes

Down the hatch:

--Food: one slice of pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks, 2 pieces of chocolate

--Drink: one glass of ice cold cola (such a treat, as we normally don't buy pop)

Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 570 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 135 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 65 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 758 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 50 (non-fiction) + 116 (fiction) = 924 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes, and started Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 6 pieces of chocolate, slice of cheese pizza, 3 mozzarella sticks

--Drink: 2 small cups coffee, one big glass of water, one small frozen coffee, one glass of ice cold cola

Miscellaneous comments:
It's waaaaaay too early to be this tired.

Dewey's Read-a-thon 5 Update 2











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 150 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 90 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 30 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 142

--What I read: Where The Wild Things Were--preface and chap. 1--by William Stolzenburg, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman

Down the hatch:

--Food: 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 4 pieces of chocalate

--Drink: large glass of water, small frozen coffee (thanks Rich!)


Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 365 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 90 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 45 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 616 pages (graphic novel/manga) + 26 (non-fiction) + 116 (fiction) = 758 (total)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova, Green Angel by Alice Hoffman, and started Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake, 1/3 of a large cheese sub, 4 pieces of chocolate

--Drink: 2 small cups coffee, large glass of water, small frozen coffee


Miscellaneous comments:
Spending a lot less time updating this read-a-thon, but I kind of like it this way. Haven't done many mini-challenges either, but again, I'm enjoying the reading time. Loved Green Angel...what a precious little book.

Annie just finished her second book as well. Gray read for four hours straight until noon, and finished one book. Max read approximately 3 pages. Rich has split his time between two different books, but hasn't finished either yet. Of course, he was a sweetheart and took time out to take Gray to the big rock/mineral show that was going on in town. Gray came back grinning ear-to-ear, with several new minerals to add to his collection as well. Rich also surprised me by stopping and getting me a frozen coffee as well.

read-a-thon update 1











Since last post:

On the clock:

--Reading: 215 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 0 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 15 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 616 (graphic novel/manga)

--What I read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake

--Drink: two small cups coffee


Cumulatively:

On the clock:

--Reading: 215 minutes

--On computer (blogging, commenting/cheering, mini-challenges): 0 minutes

--Other (pet care, dealing with little boys, etc.): 15 minutes

Between the covers:

--Number of pages: 616 pages (graphic novel/manga)

--What I've read: Dramacon Ultimate Edition

Down the hatch:

--Food: bowl of fruit salad, piece of coffee cake

--Drink: 2 small cups coffee


Miscellaneous comments:

Wow. I can't believe it's so late and I'm just now making my first update. What can I say? I was just loving this book, and I simply could not put it down until I'd read the very last page! So, what do you think, do I count this as one book, or do I get to call it three since it was three volumes in one?
Okay, off to do some visiting. Hope everyone's having fun. :D

almost there...

I can't believe the day has finally arrived. :D

And before we actually get started, I wanted to say a big thank you to those out there working their butts off to keep Dewey's spirit alive in her read-a-thon. (You know who you are.) And to all the participants who knew and loved Dewey, while we're missing her fiercely, let's not forget that this is a day to celebrate her and all she did for us! And for those of you who never got the chance to know Dewey, just know that you undoubtedly would have loved her, and know that she would have been so thrilled that you decided to join in this day of fun and sharing.

Okay, off to feed the dog, cut the coffeecake, dish out the bowls of fruit salad, and decide what book I'll be starting with. Have a truly wonderful day, everyone!!!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

yes, I married a smartass

So, my darling husband did get my book signed for me. Here's the sentiment he asked the gracious Lois Lowry to pen:


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

a little of this, a little of that

Dewey's Read-a-thon:

I know I'm not alone in feeling this big old tangled up ball of emotions right now. In fact, Chris just posted about this very thing. Missing Dewey fiercely. Aching over the empty place where she should be. And yet so full of love...love for Dewey, love for all the incredible friends who are feeling just the same as I am, love for books and reading and this wonderful celebration of it all that Dewey began as a gift to us. Chris used the word "bittersweet" and I think that says it perfectly.

I already posted a list of my read-a-thon pile books...but uhhh...I may have some additions. (You know, because the 20-some already on the pile might not be enough. Hahahahahahaha.) See, I went a little crazy at the library today. But I'll get to that later.

Now, as for food:

Feast your eyes on this...


Should I be in need for a little pick-me-up now then, I will look no further than this box of heaven. This enormous box of chocolate decadence was awaiting me on my doorstep when I arrived home from the library today!!! It arrived from this very sweet lady! I did some small thing to surprise her, both because she is just a genuinely lovely person and because she is a friend of the beautiful Pat. All I wanted was to put a smile on her face...but my goodness, look what she sent me. Should you read this, thank you again, Naomi! It was so very unnecessary, and yet is so very much appreciated.
Of course, I guess I can't live on chocolates alone (though I might willing to give it try!), so also in our line-up for the day will be: enormous fruit salad and a coffeecake for breakfast, subs for lunch, order-in pizza for supper, rotel dip and salsa and chips for late night snacking  (all made the night before, of course). And I will prepare a pile of healthy snacks for the boys that they can just grab at will, so I won't have to cut up apples, etc. throughout the day (they are major league grazers).

My coziest pjs are freshly laundered and ready to be donned after my morning shower.

My charity has been chosen. RAINN (Rape, Abuse, & Incest National Network). For a lot of reasons, this just seems to the organization calling loudest to me at the moment. Because of all the heartbreaking stories I've heard this past month. And maybe because of my own story. And well, I just know this is a choice that Dewey would fully support as well. (Thank you, Ana, for bringing this organization to my attention.) Haven't decided what sort of system to go with yet...flat amount, by page, by hour, etc.

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Going to be a somewhat book-ish night around here. Rich and Annie are off to see Lois Lowry. And the boys and I are off to the book fair and storytelling event. I probably shouldn't say this, but I think Rich got the luck of the draw this time. But I know the boys and will have fun. And Rich is going to try to get Gossamer signed for me. :D

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Library Loot:

Haven't "looted" in a while. Been trying desperately to concentrate on my own books. But this breakdown was inevitable. I've been dying to go out and buy a huge old pile of books...damn this book buying ban. So this is sort of my escape valve. I realize that this isn't a big pile for most people, but I feel so dang guilty for checking all these out when I know I can't possibly get them all read.



Sorry for the sucky picture...guess you can't really even read those titles, can you? Here's what in that pile:

Subject to Debate by Katha Pollitt*
The Motorcycle Diaries by Ernesto Che Guevara*
I'm Not Scared by Niccolo Ammaniti*
Red Spikes by Margo Lanagan
Blankets by Craig Thompson*
Jar of Fools by Jason Lutes
Cry Bloody Murder: A Tale of Tainted Blood by Elaine DePrince
Berlin: City of Stones (Book One) by Jason Lutes

(Books with asterisks are subject to blame. See below.)

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 And finally, it's been a long time since I've passed out blame. Probably because I've really been quite good at not accumulating so many books. :D  This round is almost over (if I'm not mistaken, it lasts until the end of this month), so there will possibly be one more batch to hand out before a winner/pusher is announced.

Make Lemonade by Virginia Euwer Wolff. Point for Megan! You know, if I'm not mistaken, this review was one of the very first posts of Megan's I ever read. :D (Book acquired through PaperbackSwap, which is allowed according to the terms of my book buying ban.)
High School Confidential: Secrets of an Undercover Student by Jeremy Iversen. Point for Kara! When she mentioned this book, I immediately added it to my wish list. She does not get off the hook simply because she was nice enough to send it to me. :D
The Enchanted Forest Chronicles by Patricia C. Wrede. Point for DesLily! Though honestly, I'm tempted to give her four points, as this is technically four books in one! Here's the post that sealed my doom. (Also acquired through PaperbackSwap.)
Subject to Debate by Katha Pollitt. Care to guess? Yep, of course, it was Nymeth! Though technically it was not this particular book she reviewed. First there was this review and then today, there was this review. However, this was the only one of Pollitt's books that our library had on the shelf.
The Motorcycle Diaries: Notes on a Latin American Journey by Ernesto Che Guevara. Point for Jason! I have to admit that I used to be extremely intimidated by Jason. And now that I found out he's just as sweet and down-to-earth as can be, I'm afraid my book accumulation problem is only going to get worse...he reads some awesome non-fiction books. (As far as his fiction reading, well, that pretty much still intimidates me.)
I'm Not Scared by Niccolo Ammaniti. Point for Eva! Normally, it's she who is racking up non-fiction blame points, but this time it's a fiction read. 'Cause like I could resist after this review...yeah, right.
Blankets by Craig Thompson. Point for Dewey! And you know, I sort of love that I'm wrapping up with a point for her...because, geez, I just love how much she still influences the reading of so many of us. :) Yep, Chris, bittersweet, for sure.

Monday, October 19, 2009

smile-worthy

Okay, so I have to go to the dentist again today. And this time it even involves shots and drills and all manner of nasty things. I've already been sick, despite the fact that I knew better than to put anything in my stomach besides coffee. Uhh yeah. Way too much information. Sorry. Panic overload.

But I am not going to allow this mental meltdown to lead me down any paths as stupid as I did last week. Instead I figured it was a good time to focus on "good stuff."

*The Ask and the Answer...only a bit over a hundred pages in. Know a lot of shit is coming. Want to know so badly what's to come, yet realize I'm not going to like it. The events, that is. Not the book. Nearly certain I will continue loving the book.

*On a related note, Rich started reading The Knife of Never Letting Go last night. Squeeee. :D :D :D Doesn't it just make you downright giddy when someone you love starts reading a book you love?!!!

*This vlog. Okay, I hate that I caused Ana so much stress...really I do. But I am so very, very happy that she made this vlog!!! I probably shouldn't admit how many times I've watched it already. Kind of like the way I look at my pictures of our visit with Chris all the time. And Renay. Ahhh, I just have the greatest friends. :D :D :D :D

*This outfit. Just makes me smile. (And makes me wish that I could dress like her.)



























*This vlog. Oh my goodness, how I love this video review!!! Amanda and her boys are just too adorable for words. Seriously. :D

*Okay, here's a no-brainer--the read-a-thon is less than a week away! :D :D :D :D  So, so, so, so, sooooo excited.

*One more vlog. Eva simply could not be any cuter...I just love how she arranges her bookshelves! And what fun getting an in-depth look this way...feels almost voyeuristic. Anyway, it looks so pretty arranged by color. Wish I could do that, but I know I'd never be able to find anything.

*And speaking of bookshelves. Yes, I'm still in the process of rearranging our "library." Rich put a few more shelves in the former closet, so I'm going to be able to get all of Annie's books (not counting the massive number of books she still has housed in her bedroom, that is) into there. And this means, I will get one whole wall for my fiction! :D And Rich also built an additional bookcase for that wall this weekend...we're sneaking it in behind the door. Anyway, maybe when I finish rearranging, I'll post pics of the completed sections. Ahh, I just love playing with all the pretty books. :D

In fact, I think I will head off and do just that while I await my doom...

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Dangerous Angels...random thoughts


 Dangerous Angels by Francesca Lia Block.

Is it silly to say that I just want to hug this book and carry it with me always?  Well, in a sense, I will...for these books have settled down inside of me. I believe they may be the most life-affirming books I've ever read.

(Dangerous Angels is actually a collection of five short books: Weetzie Bat, Witch Baby, Cherokee Bat and the Goat Guys, Missing Angel Juan, and Baby Be-Bop. Each of them could easily be read as a stand-alone...but seriously, you don't want to do that. Because each book adds so much to the richness of the others.)

When I said above that these books are life-affirming, I hope I didn't sound misleading. I don't say that to mean that these books are simply full of sunlight and butterflies and unconditional love. They are full of these things, but they are also full of sadness and loneliness and confusion. There is joy and there is heartache. There is acceptance and intolerance. There is life...in all its glorious and painful realities.

This collection of stories centers around this group of people who have come together as a family. Some share the same DNA, most don't. What they all do share is love for one another. They have names like Weetzie and Witch Baby and My Secret Agent Lover Man and Duck...and as odd as it sounds, it never seems odd. Francesca Lia Block has this way of making the "strange" seem not just normal, but perfectly perfect.

The Rose & the Beast is the only other book I've read by Block. I loved it as well, but in many ways, it has a very different feel. That collection of retold fairy tales was a bit more haunting and gritty. But her magic with words is apparent in both. I know not everyone agrees, but I find her writing utterly enchanting. I hesitate to use the word quirky, because I sometimes, perhaps unfairly, view "quirky" as forced. As trying too hard to be different. But there is nothing of that feel to Block's writing. Her uniqueness feels so genuine, as if she is just pouring herself onto the pages. (I can imagine no one else on earth who could make me feel the urge to go around calling things "slinkster-cool.")

But back to the stories. I think she says it best herself in Baby Be-Bop:

Stories are like genies, Dirk thought. They can carry us into and through our sorrows. Sometimes they burn, sometimes they dance, sometimes they weep, sometimes they sing. Like genies, everyone has one. Like genies, sometimes we forget that we do.

Our stories can set us free, Dirk thought. When we set them free.
 Oh my, but what are the stories about. Everything. Coming of age, coming out, holding on too tight, and learning to let go, making mistakes, and learning from them, birth, and death, and listening to your own voice. You know, I have like fifty little slips of paper stuck in the pages of this book...so many beautiful passages and things I wanted to mention. But bottom line, I just can't think of any way to put all these swirling thoughts into a coherent form.

So I will just say "Dangerous Angels is a celebration of life" and leave it at that.

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Other thoughts:

Nymeth at Things Mean A Lot
Becky at Becky's Book Reviews
RaiderGirl3 at An Adventure in Reading (Weetzie Bat)
Valentina at Valentina's Room (Weetzie Bat)
Valentina at Valentina's Room (Witch Baby)
Valentina at Valentina's Room (Cherokee Bat and the Goat Guys)

I'm sure I've missed some reviews. I apologize. But please feel free to leave a link in the comments, and I will be happy to add it. Thanks.

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I guess I'm out of hiding. Shouldn't be...that damn to-do list is nowhere near tamed yet. But I couldn't help it...how could I resist the premier of Ana's vlog?!!! I couldn't, and I'm glad I didn't! Ana, you are sooooo AWESOME!!!!

Anyway, I'll probably still be a bit scarce over this coming week, but I've been missing you all so much that it will be good to see what you're all up to.

Happy week before the read-a-thon to everyone!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

my apologies

Yes, I am still technically on a blogging break. But I have to go to the dentist this morning, and this has me feeling nauseous and unable to accomplish the things I should be accomplishing anyway. And since I was already in a state of overwhelming queasiness, I figured I might as well just wallow in it.

So, I now feel the need to apologize for subjecting you to this...my awful voice, my fifty-three chins, my constant looking at the ceiling because I don't want to look at myself, my lack of anything of substance to talk about, etc.

BUT...you all now owe me big!!! Because Nymeth made a deal with me...if I did a vlog, she would do a vlog. Hahahaha...she was counting on my wussyness to save her. And well, normally it would, but my odontophobia has me behaving irrationally this morning.

Ana, I'm sorry...but I so want to hear your voice and see that beautiful face of yours. Please, please, please try to not stay mad at me for too long. Please.



On a side note, as horrendous as this video is, I am so freakin' proud of myself for figuring out how to do it all on my own.

Edited: Okay, well I was really proud of myself, until I published this and saw that half my face is cut off. ;)

Monday, October 12, 2009

going into hiding (and the final cut for the read-a-thon pile)

Ha. Making it sound like I lead a life of intrigue there, huh? ;)  But no. I haven't stolen the secret plans for the doomsday machine or testified in a mob trial or anything remotely exciting like that. No, I've just gotten ridiculously behind on schoolwork and housework and giftwork and... I know, I know, could I possibly be any more boring?!! Anyway, it was with much pain and gnashing of teeth that I hit that "mark all as read" button this morning, knowing I just couldn't catch up before I start this self-imposed blogging ban. And likely I'll have to hit it again when I come back. *sigh* So if you all don't mind...just don't post anything for a while, okay? I just don't like missing out on what you all are up to! Oh, okay, okay, I guess that is an unreasonable request, but you can't blame a person for trying, can you?

Anyway, before I dive into that nine page to-do list I've made for myself for the week, I thought I should let you all know which books you chose for me to keep in my read-a-thon pile. There were a couple that didn't make the pile that I was really hoping would. But then, the chances of actually getting them read bordered on zilch anyway.

The ones in bold are the ones that made the cut:

1. Follow the rules. (Rules by Cynthia Lord)--I really like this first line, too...Melody was the only one who chose it though.

2. Mr. Sherlock Holmes, who was usually very late in the mornings, save upon those not infrequent occasions when he stayed up all night, was seated at the breakfast table. (The Hound of the Baskervilles by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle)--I have DesLily to thank for adding this one to the pile. And look, Pat, it is your favorite Sherlock Holmes!)

3. On a morning in mid-April, 1687, the brigantine Dolphin left the open sea, sailed briskly across the Sound to the wide mouth of the Connecticut River and into Saybrook harbour. (The Witch of Blackbird Pond by Elizabeth George Speare)--I have to admit that this is not a sentence I would have picked in a million years (though I've wanted to read this book for about that long), but lots of you chose it. Louise and Megan and Eva.

4. What a lot of hairy faced men there are around nowadays.(The Twits by Roald Dahl)--So glad this one made the cut--I figured if I noticed the boys heads starting to sizzle and steam from too much TV and Nintendo, I could always take a break from what I'm reading and start reading this one aloud to them. Actually, I somehow knew Rich would pick it, but so did Megan and Suey and Eva and Annie.

5. I am telling you this just the way it went with all the details I remember as they were, and including the parts I'm not sure about. (Make Lemonade by Virginia Euwer Wolff)--Chosen by Chris and Melody and Stephanie. (Hey Megan--this one's earned you a point when I eventually get around to another blame game post!)

6. The surname of the family was Cox, the father a very successful trial lawyer, but the target was the mother. (Cross Country by James Patterson)

7. The slaaf stumbled along the shore of Willow Lake. (A Circle of Souls by Preetham Grandhi)--Chosen by Annie, who never ceases to surprise me. :)

8. "Mrs. Locke?" (Locke & Key by Joe Hill and Gabriel Rodriguez)--Was sort of hoping this one would get picked...this graphic novel looks to be scary enough to keep me up in those wee hours.

9. After a hard day, your steps become heavy. (Mijeong by Byun Byung-Jun)--Okay, Shanra, I'm curious...did you know what book you were picking here? I know you didn't like this book all that much.

10. My first anime convention...did not start out smooth. (Dramacon: Ultimate Edition by Svetlana Chmakova)--I need to get this book read by the end of October, since it's for our family challenge, so thanks Chris and Annie.

11. Dear friend, I am writing to you because she said you listen and understand and didn't try to sleep with that person at that party even though you could have. (The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky)--So many votes for this one! (Some influenced by their love of the book, I do believe.) Megan and Darren *crossing fingers that I spelled your name correctly* and Suey and Chris and Annie and Melody.

12. Midsummer: The long days begin in bright, rising mist and never end. (Go With Me by Castle Freeman Jr.)--Thanks to Shanra and Eva. This is a short little book of suspense, and I tend to like that late at night.

13. The promised me nine years of safety but only gave me three. (Such a Pretty Girl by Laura Wiess)--This may be the most intriguing line of all to me. And I'm definitely not alone. This was a pick for Louise and Darren and Amanda and Suey and Shanra and Chris and Annie and Amanda and Melody and Stephanie.

14. This is how things look: Shady Pines Apartments, four shabby buildings tucked off the road near the highway. (Living Dead Girl by Elizabeth Scott)--Thanks Kara...I'm glad this one made the cut.

15. Anyone who writes a book of science about great, flesh-eating beasts should be required up front to disclose their bias. (Where the Wild Things Were by William Stolzenburg)--Had a number of non-fiction in the original stack, and I'm happy that a few made it into the final pile. (Actually if my week goes as planned--which it seldom does--I'll have this read before the read-a-thon, because aside from just being really interested, it's for school.) This one caught the attention of  Eva and Melody and Stephanie.

16. When he was thirty-six, Gregory Volfovich Chudnovsky began to build a supercomputer in his apartment from mail-order parts. (Panic in Level 4 by Richard Preston)--Another non-fiction. Somehow I just knew I could count on Jean to pick this one. Because it's the kind of thing that happens routinely in her home. Only her sons would have done this at the age of six, not thirty-six. ;)

17. Once upon a time, a scattered group of girls undertook the passage from girlhood to womanhood in a city built around a bay. (Promiscuities: The Secret Struggle for Womanhood by Naomi Wolf)--More non-fiction. Picked by Louise and Amanda and Annie and Melody.

18. That's a great idea! (Plenty Enough Suck to Go Around by Cheryl Wagner)

19. I opened the door and froze. (Define "Normal" by Julie Anne Peters)--A fairly short YA that sounds like perfect read-a-thon material. Chosen by Vivienne and Suey and Chris and Annie.

20. Here we go! (Freak Show by James St. James)

21. I was born in this house, and grew up here. (The Book of Chameleons by Jose Eduardo Agualusa)--If I'm going to read this one, it will have to be early in the day...the print is on the smaller side, which is a definite sleep inducer for me. Chosen by Amanda and Melody.

22. I once believed that life was a gift. (Green Angel by Alice Hoffman)--Looks like a good choice for read-a-thon...it's very short and it has a few beautiful drawings. Picked by Amanda and Chris and Annie and Amanda and Melody.

23. An owl called, its shuddering hoots repeating mournfully in the distance. (Gossamer by Lois Lowry)--Can't believe I haven't read this one yet. Thanks to Vivienne and Eva, maybe this read-a-thon will be my chance.

24. The forecourt of the Chinese Theater smelled of rain-wet stone and car-exhaust, but a faint aroma like pears and cumin seemed to cling to his shirt-collar as he stepped around the clustered tourists, who all appeared to be blinking up at the copper towers above the forecourt wall or smiling into cameras as they knelt to press their hands into the puddled hand-prints in the cement paving blocks. (A Soul in a Bottle by Tim Powers) Well, with an opening sentence like that, I'm not all that surprised that it didn't get chosen. Still, I can't wait to read this book one day!

25. How shall I begin this tale so you will get some sense of what manner of creature I am? (Nightmares & Fairy Tales: Once Upon a Time... by Serena Valentino) So thankful to Suey and Chris and Rich and Annie Amanda and Melody and Stephanie for choosing this one...a short, eerie graphic novel. Sounds perfect, doesn't it?

26. A Midwestern town. (Dark Harvest by Norman Partridge)--I have a feeling this is another perfect fall read-a-thon choice. And thanks to Stephanie, I may get to find out.

27. Like many fathers, mine could occasionally be prevailed on for a spot of "airplane." (Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic by Alison Bechdel)

28. Science, reason, and rationality have, by nearly any recent measure, suffered serious diminishment in the public sphere. (Science Under Siege: Defending Science, Exposing Pseudoscience edited by Kendrick Frazier) Pouting a bit that this one didn't make the cut. This is a book of essays, and I thought they might be nice to slip into between other reading. Oh well.

29. Anyone living in the United States in the early 1990s and paying even a whisper of attention to the nightly news or a daily paper could be forgiven for having been scared out of his skin. (Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything by Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner) Probably won't get to this one, yet I'm still glad it's an option thanks to Shanra.

30. No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality; even larks and katydids are supposed, by some, to dream. (The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson) Kind of surprise this one wasn't picked...I really love that sentence!

31. This is my story about what happened to me last year when Mum got ill and Dad and I had to go and stay at Aunt Nan's and I had my weird dream. (Mirrormask by Neil Gaiman and Dave McKean)--Like we even need to question that this is a good choice, huh? ;) It made the finals thanks to Amanda and Jean and Suey.

32. "Here they come," said Cecy, lying there flat in the High Attic dust. (The Homecoming by Ray Bradbury and Dave McKean) Another I just know will be perfect. :D Thank for picking it, Louise.

33. It was so weird. (Black Hole by Charles Burns) This one is high on "want to read now" list, so maybe this one will actually get read during read-a-thon. Picked by Jean and Annie.

34. "I'm off to school, Ma." (The Book of Ballads by Charles Vess) This poor book never makes the cut. :(

35. "Say what you will about our mutual ex-husband." (Fables: The Mean Seasons by Bill Willingham) Chosen with no shenanigans involved *crossing fingers behind back* by friends who love me, Eva and Chris.

Okay, so that's still a mighty large pile for a gal who will be lucky to crank out three books in 24 hours, huh? Thanks so much for playing! And hey, if you feel like playing again, Annie's got hers posted for picking now, too.

See you all in a few (or more) days...I'll miss you!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Read-a-thon! Read-a-thon! Read-a-thon!


Yes, that is a direct from quote from the lovely Trish.

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So many of us start anticipating the next read-a-thon the very day that the previous one ends. (Sorry for that extremely poorly written sentence...my brain is squishy this morning, and try as I might, I just can't seem to phrase it any more coherently. But I hope you get my meaning.) Seriously, to so many of us, Dewey's Read-a-Thons are literally some of our favorite days of the entire year. And I just can't go on with this post without again acknowledging the joy that Dewey continues to bring to our lives. I can't believe it's been almost a year since she died. And every day I've missed her. Face it, we'll always miss her. And you know, I have to think she wouldn't hold our tears over missing her against us, but I also think she would be much happier knowing that we continued to celebrate our love of reading with one another in a joyful manner. I can't promise that I won't cry a little, or a lot, feeling the empty space where Dewey should be, but I will promise that I will try to hold on to the wonderful gifts she so freely gave to us all in the creation of her baby, the read-a-thon. The gift of time set aside to indulge in a passion. The gift of sharing all the silly giddyness with friends. The gift of meeting new people and starting new friendships. For everything, Dewey, thank you.

*****
When the date for this read-a-thon was first announced, I thought that I wasn't going to be able to participate. Normally it would be the weekend we celebrated Gray's birthday.  At first I thought I was okay with that. Until the official sign-up post went up, that is, and everyone started excitedly chatting about it. I'm ashamed to say that I went into major pout mode. :(  But that evening at dinner, Rich and I were talking about it, and the thoughtful, soon-to-be birthday boy chimed in with, "Well, Mom, why don't we just celebrate my birthday the next weekend?" We explained to him that if we did that, he'd have to share his birthday celebration with Halloween festivities. And bless his sweet heart, he said that was okay with him. So, thanks to Gray, I will be able to participate in my fifth straight read-a-thon! :D

And this year, it's going to be even more of a family event here. This will be Annie's fourth read-a-thon, but in the past the guys have always taken off for fun adventures elsewhere. But this time, Rich is going to fully participate, and the boys are going to participate on a mini-scale. Gray has committed to reading at least 4 hours. ("But it's okay if I read more than that, right Mom?" :D ) And Max...well, if he meets his 1 hour goal, we'll be thrilled. Sort of a poster child for reluctant reader, this little guy is.

So, how are we going to pull this off, both Rich and I reading for 24 hours? (Or attempting to anyway...probably shouldn't count those chickens yet.) With a heaping pile of bad parenting. Yep, a huge stack of DVDs and extended Nintendo DS time. The boys will be overdosing on "screen time." Actually, hopefully they'll be doing all kinds of other things. But when the string of "Mom, can you play chess with me?" and "Dad, let's go play tag." and "Mom, can you make me some more cards?" and well, you get the idea...when this normal string of requests begins, we'll answer it with the electronic babysitter. Yes, I do feel guilty...but it's just one little weekend, right? It won't scar them for life or anything, will it? Come on, help me here people...

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Okay, and what is half the fun of the read-a-thon? Yep, putting together that lovely, teetering pile of books!

You've heard it before, you'll likely hear it again: I am a slooooow reader. Wish I wasn't, but I am. Thus, I really only need a pile of three or four books. Maybe five if they're all exceptionally short. But where is the fun in having a pile that small?!! And a person needs options, right? Right. However, this person probably doesn't quite need 35 options.

So, as Annie and I have both done for the last two read-a-thons, I'm going to ask you to help me weed down my pile with that little "first sentence" game. I'll post the first sentence from the books in that precarious monstrosity I've labeled my "read-a-thon pile," and you'll tell me which ones grab you. The duds will thereafter be eliminated.

Which ones would pull you in and keep you awake in the wee hours?

1. Follow the rules.

2. Mr. Sherlock Holmes, who was usually very late in the mornings, save upon those not infrequent occasions when he stayed up all night, was seated at the breakfast table.

3. On a morning in mid-April, 1687, the brigantine Dolphin left the open sea, sailed briskly across the Sound to the wide mouth of the Connecticut River and into Saybrook harbour.

4. What a lot of hairy faced men there are around nowadays.

5. I am telling you this just the way it went with all the details I remember as they were, and including the parts I'm not sure about.

6. The surname of the family was Cox, the father a very successful trial lawyer, but the target was the mother.

7. The slaaf stumbled along the shore of Willow Lake.

8. "Mrs. Locke?"

9. After a hard day, your steps become heavy.

10. My first anime convention...did not start out smooth.

11. Dear friend, I am writing to you because she said you listen and understand and didn't try to sleep with that person at that party even though you could have.

12. Midsummer: The long days begin in bright, rising mist and never end.

13. The promised me nine years of safety but only gave me three.

14. This is how things look: Shady Pines Apartments, four shabby buildings tucked off the road near the highway.

15. Anyone who writes a book of science about great, flesh-eating beasts should be required up front to disclose their bias.

16. When he was thirty-six, Gregory Volfovich Chudnovsky began to build a supercomputer in his apartment from mail-order parts.

17. Once upon a time, a scattered group of girls undertook the passage from girlhood to womanhood in a city built around a bay.

18. That's a great idea!

19. I opened the door and froze.

20. Here we go!

21. I was born in this house, and grew up here.

22. I once believed that life was a gift.

23. An owl called, its shuddering hoots repeating mournfully in the distance.

24. The forecourt of the Chinese Theater smelled of rain-wet stone and car-exhaust, but a faint aroma like pears and cumin seemed to cling to his shirt-collar as he stepped around the clustered tourists, who all appeared to be blinking up at the copper towers above the forecourt wall or smiling into cameras as they knelt to press their hands into the puddled hand-prints in the cement paving blocks.

25. How shall I begin this tale so you will get some sense of what manner of creature I am?

26. A Midwestern town.

27. Like many fathers, mine could occasionally be prevailed on for a spot of "airplane."

28. Science, reason, and rationality have, by nearly any recent measure, suffered serious diminishment in the public sphere.

29. Anyone living in the United States in the early 1990s and paying even a whisper of attention to the nightly news or a daily paper could be forgiven for having been scared out of his skin.

30. No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality; even larks and katydids are supposed, by some, to dream.

31. This is my story about what happened to me last year when Mum got ill and Dad and I had to go and stay at Aunt Nan's and I had my weird dream.

32. "Here they come," said Cecy, lying there flat in the High Attic dust.

33. It was so weird.

34. "I'm off to school, Ma."

35. "Say what you will about our mutual ex-husband."

Thanks for playing...I'm sure you'll all pick me some winners. :D

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On a sort of related note...

Annie is a member of the Teen Advisory Board at our local library. And our library is one of the local libraries that helps sponsor the annual Greater Rochester Teen Book Festival each spring. Today all the sponsoring groups get together and participate in a fund-raising read-a-thon. (Pretty sure this 4 hour version will be a piece of cake for Annie...and a nice warm-up for the 24-hour one, huh?) Anyway, I wanted to thank all of you who so generously sponsored her! She's thrilled to be walking in there with such a nice list of sponsors and an envelope full of money. Thank you!

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Okay, I'll finally shut up.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

this is not a pretty post

Rape is not a pretty subject.

Nor is rape a joke. Nor is it entertaining. Nor is it a figment of the imagination.

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Once upon a time, there was an eighteen-year-old girl who was raped. When she told her sixteen-year-old friend (because good heavens, how on earth could she tell something like that to her parents), her friend obviously had no clue how to react and ended up being dismissive. The girl shut up. She tried to forget. And really, she did a pretty good job. Unless you count the nightmares. Or the unexplained crying jags over nothing.

Girl goes to college. Time passes. Girl meets love of her life. All is good.

Except that it's not. Girl gets sick. She starts having trouble keeping food down. She loses weight. Lots. She has medical test after medical test after medical test. No answers. She sinks into a deep depression. She tries so hard to put on a happy face, because that is simply the kind of person she is. But she starts sleeping eighteen hours a day. Being asleep doesn't hurt. So she decides to take all the pills in her medicine cabinet. It's not so much that she wants to die; it's more that she wants to not wake up.

Girl ends up in psychiatric hospital. Which turns out to be the very best thing that could have happened to her. She meets one very insightful psychologist who suspects immediately that there is some sort of sexual abuse at the root of this girl's problems. The psychologist calls her on it, and the girl put up no resistance. Thus began a new strategy for survival.

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This post has been a long time coming. I've been strongly tempted to write something before, but, well, I hope you can understand why I would hesitate. So why did I decide to write it now? Because Eva wrote this wonderful post yesterday. She wondered if she was being too sensitive. And my heart broke. For her. For all of us. Because how is it that we are so conditioned to wonder if we're being too sensitive when we are upset by rape? Why do we doubt that that is a legitimate reaction to violence?

And she also quoted the statistic about 1 in 4 women being sexually assaulted in their lifetimes in this country. 1 in 4. And I think there are many people who just don't believe that. And I suspect there are many reasons for denial, and I'm not qualified to talk about them.

But I do know that while some women have these incredible voices and seemingly boundless courage in speaking out, there are other women who don't. I was raped 27 years ago. In all that time, I've told 7 people (not including the people at the psych hospital, etc.). The girl I told initially who brushed me off, later a boyfriend/now my loving husband, then my parents (yeah, sort of thought they might have wondered about the whole suicide attempt and psych hospital thing), and then, just in the last year, three dear blogging friends. Only seven people that have been a part of my life in the past 27+ years knew. I think it's easy to see why you may think you don't know anyone who has been raped, when you actually almost surely do.

Still, I imagine there may be people who are thinking, what exactly does she hope to gain from this post. I get that. Rape is not a comfortable topic. That, however, doesn't mean that it shouldn't be talked about. Being a survivor of rape is NOT something to be ashamed of. Oh, I grant you, this is one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm thin-skinned, and I'm not sure I'm ready for this throwing off of the protective layer I've kept myself wrapped in. This layer of public silence.

But if throwing off this layer of public silence can help even one person throw off that layer of private silence, then it will be so worth it. That layer of private silence that I first clung to, well, it nearly killed me.

Monday, October 05, 2009

snapshots of fall

I have to admit that I've had a major case of the "blahs" lately. I'm sorry...I don't mean to whine. And I hate making excuses, but that's why I haven't been a very good blogger lately. I can't seem to keep up with my blog reading at all, and I really haven't been posting much either. There's certainly nothing wrong in my life, and I've actually been quite busy. Actually maybe that's part of the problem--maybe I've been too busy. So many things to do for so many people. Not the least of which is school stuff. Sorry again. Seems like I complain about school all the time. And I shouldn't. Because I know how very lucky we are to be in a position to give Annie the education she needs and just can't get at the local public school. But it is so draining...  Anyway. I need to snap out of this funk!!!

And Susan unwittingly gave me a little boost this morning. When I read her post loaded with fall photos, I was inspired to grab my camera and head out into the yard. The funny thing is is that this is a yearly tradition with me. Every year I spend a morning taking fall photos in our yard. But it had never entered my mind this year. That's what the blahs will do to you, I guess.Anyway, thank you, Susan!

Okay, I admit I'm no photographer, but what the heck, it's never stopped me from posting pictures before. ;) Here's a look at autumn in our tiny little patch of upstate New York:

Very few flowers about now. These sedum seem to be the only thing blooming in our yard. And yes, I love flowers, but...



























I actually tend to enjoy even more when they're dead.

 




















 




















































And what's fall without changing leaves, huh?


 

 
 


And berries...


























 And fruit...


Okay, I apologize for the rotting apple picture, but I thought the lady bug eating away in there was just too cool. We have an awesome pear crop this year...we've been stocking our fruit bowl for the past couple weeks and still have tons. Going to make a pear crisp today. Big baking day around here actually--need to make brownies for this week's lunches and make banana bread as we've got some bananas going to the dark side.
And :D. I was so thrilled that I caught a shot (albeit a blurry one) of a couple of stragglers. So very fall.


And speaking of fall...I'm very excited about Dewey's Read-a-Thon. And if that doesn't snap me out this funk, nothing will. :D